What would you do if you turned around and there was a lion roaring in your face?
I mean, you're not at a zoo....there is no cage, and he is getting ready to have his dinner.
You, being the main course.
Honestly. Think about it. Wouldn't you be scared? Would you ever want to go back to that "place", wherever that may have happened?
Well, here is my thought on life today, and what I need help with. I'm hoping when I share my heart in some of these aspects some of you may comment to help, or admit you understand. Please feel free to share, I'd love to hear from you.
The fact is, there IS a Lion. Right Behind You (and me)!
1 Peter 5:8
8 Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour.
I'm going to be completely honest. I don't even know who's all out there, but I don't really have another to bear my soul to, so it's you, blog readers.
I have too many places where this roaring lion searches out for me. So it really makes it hard for me to want to go back to those places. What am I to do? Where am I to turn? The devil knows my weaknesses, and I don't know how to get him to stop throwing them in my face.
Not to say there's only one. But my biggest weakness is......hmmm......I'm dumbfounded as I type because more than one word is going through my head. Let's say, lack of control. I'm not a 'big life' planner...I mean, I plan events, and things for the here and now, and enjoy organizing that kind of stuff. But I've never really planned out my life, long term. Except for one thing. I wanted to get married and have kids. Right away. And really, who doesn't expect that to happen? Isn't that the normal occurrence of life?
But it didn't happen, right away. And it didn't happen how I dreamed/thought it would happen. (Am I thankful for my children. By all means! I love them, and would never take it back.) But the longing for something that hasn't been, and feels like it will never be, is unbearable. And I think, it's all about the lack of control. I didn't get to choose, when I would have kids, or how they would come to me. And for most people it's a given. They are just going to have a baby, and most likely whenever they want, (or so it seems to those of us) i.e. try for it, and it happens the first time or even sooner then they planned. Either way, for most people it's a joy, no matter the timing. But that's the struggle for me.
Because everywhere I go, the lion is roaring at me, taunting me.....
"Ha, ha....look around you, most everyone else in this room has what you want, EXCEPT YOU!"
"Look over there, look how happy that mom is with their new baby, look, look, look.....now look at your arms, and how they've been empty from a baby for 9 years."
"Your dream is dead, you can never go back in time and get what you wanted."
That's a kicker....I DON'T WANT MY DREAM TO DIE! PLEASE. It's not even that complicated of a dream or desire. It's a natural tendency that happens to people (other people) every day.
To bear a child.
Now tell me, how do I fight back from that?
I feel like I drowning by this pressure, and no one knows. How can you pull me up from drowning when you don't know I'm drowning? Right? Well, now I'm telling you, I'm drowning here! Help me!
I know my problem. It's the fixing it part, that I'm struggling with.
Print 2 copies of the verse. Cut on apart and use the other one
underneath to match it up. After a while you will be able to put the
verse in order without using the bottom piece to match the letters up!
Colossians 1:18 Verse Tracing for my kindergartener.
Print twice. Cut one out and laminate. Then lay over top of the original, to put the verse in order, or put together without the sheet on the bottom. Easiest is used with "older" children. This is for my 2nd grader.
Learn this verse. Print and Laminate. Leave one verse
normal, and cut the other one apart. Match them to the words to
memorize the verse while putting it in order. Eventually you will be
able to just use the letters and put the verse in order without the
extra help underneath!
In a skillet, or wok, heat 3 Tbsp of the chicken broth. Mix the rest of the broth with the soy sauce and corn starch in another bowl and set aside. Add chicken to the wok and stir fry over medium heat until no longer pink. Remove and keep warm. Add garlic, carrots, peas and broccoli to the pan with a little bit of olive oil. Fry until heated through and crisp-tender. Stir in the broth mixture with the chicken. Cook and stir 2-4 minutes to let the sauce thicken. Mix in the cashews last right before serving. Serve over hot rice.
Have you ever wanted something so bad?!! I mean, so bad that even after those, years and years of wanting it you almost felt like...... now if I ever DO get that thing, will I ever really be satisfied?
Interestingly enough, I was watching a kids movie with the boys....Kung Fu Panda 2 to be exact. Well if you haven't seen it, there is a jealous peacock, and a wise old ram tells him, "The cup you are trying to fill has no bottom."
Huh.....I was taken-a-back by that piece of wisdom, especially given the source. :) And then it started to creep into my brain more and more, and I was wondering...
Do I ever act like that?
I do know, there are things I've wanted,
Desires, I've longed for,
and the years are still passing by.....
and I am still waiting for this dream....
to be (completely) fulfilled.....
but will it.....
Or all of it?
How can anyone ever fill a cup that doesn't have a bottom? Can you
picture it? All your efforts are basically a waste of time, because
everything you are "going for".....
All those desires you are hoping to fulfill, or receive.....
It's slipping right through the cracks,
or right out the bottom, and never actually filling you up, or being
used, or being counted as a blessing, or a reward, or the list could go
Hmmm, so does my cup have a bottom? Am I taking in the blessings I have been given, or am I letting them get away instead?
Well I can gratefully say that my cup does have a bottom, and there are no other holes either, because Jesus fills in those gaps!
Don't let your cup break. Don't let your cup have a hole in it. Jesus is the glue that will hold you together. All you need is Jesus to fix your cup, and He will fill it up.
Then you will be ready to take in those little blessings all around you that God sends your way, and watch them outpour onto those around you.
Besides....we need to remember, we are put here to glorify God, and to please HIM! Not to please ourselves.
Psalm 19:14- Lord, may the words of my mouth and the thoughts of my heart, be pleasing in YOUR eyes. You are my rock and my redeemer. (NIRV) (emphasis mine)
And, life is not about what we want, but what God wants for us!
Isaiah 55: 8-9
“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the LORD. “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.
Keep your lives free from the love of money and be contentwithwhat you have, because God has said, “Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.”